You can’t pour from an empty cup. Take care of your self first.  Those words have never rang more true to me than they did last week. My cup was empty, honestly, my cup was shattered on the floor along with the rest of me. Just waiting for someone to fix it and fill it. […]

Today I quit. As I sat balling, uncontrollably sobbing in the Macy’s parking lot I quit. I didn’t want to do it anymore, and worst of all I didn’t know if I could. I didn’t know how to get through the next 5 minutes, let alone the rest of the day.  It was a normal […]

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow. Winter is back and here with a fury. My grandma, Mia, and I were supposed to go to the ballet today to see the Nutcracker but decided not to risk it, as bummed as we are I am happy to be safe and warm in the comfort of my home. As much as […]

In honor of Thanksgiving and honestly all the negativity taking over the world lately I wanted to write a happy, positive post about all the things I am thankful for and what we are loving lately.  First and most obvious I am SO thankful and blessed to have my girls. Even on the hardest days […]

It’s been a couple weeks since my last post, life has been hectic since Havens diagnosis. We had a long list of orders and recommendations and I’m slowly checking them off. The amount of paperwork, phone calls, and appointments these days are insane. I’ve really struggled with my words lately, life has been extra trying, […]

Wednesday Haven received her official Autism diagnosis and as prepared as I thought I was for it, I took it so much harder than I thought I would. A couple people asked me, well didn’t you know it was coming? Well Yeah, I did, but it feels like when you know a hurricane is coming, […]

In honor of my sweet baby turning FIVE this post will be all (well mostly) about my Mia.  At 12:06 am on October 18, 2011 my whole life began. At that moment I learned the actual meaning of love. God sent me that perfect 7lb 4 oz baby girl for a reason. I needed her more […]

This is probably going to sound like a pity party for one. So be it, but these last few weeks have been so hard and I just feel like some people truly just don’t get it. I don’t expect strangers and acquaintances too, but even close family and friends don’t truly comprehend it. I feel […]

Special. Special Needs. Special Education. “Your child is so special, though.” Special. Special. Special. I loathe the word. This journey has done that to me. Definition of Special: “better, greater, or otherwise different from what is usual.” Basically that’s exactly what comes to my mind when I think of my Havey. She is all those […]

Well not really fired, I’m not Donald Trump. (THANK GOD😷) But today we had to let go of a therapist. A therapist that we welcomed into our home, into our family, into the most vulnerable and painstaking part of our lives. We had higher hopes for her than she had for us, and we are […]